supposed to be

supposed to be better than this
supposed to be back by now
supposed to be bigger than that
supposed to be level
supposed to be opposite the entrance
supposed to be blue
supposed to be correct at the time of going to press
supposed to be accurate to the fourth decimal place
supposed to be in Ethiopia
supposed to be here by now
supposed to be more fizzy than this 
supposed to be under the ocean
supposed to be like a dog but bigger
supposed to be finished by now
supposed to be out tomorrow night
supposed to be very pure 
supposed to be transparant
supposed to be there by now
supposed to be easier than this
supposed to be like chocolate but it isn’t
supposed to be fresh
supposed to be in the post
supposed to be gone by now
supposed to be sunny today
supposed to be his best movie to date
supposed to be the weaker sex
supposed to be all in the past 
supposed to be a doctor
supposed to be feeling better by now
supposed to be the first on the right
supposed to be going to Spain tomorrow
supposed to be offside
supposed to be outside
supposed to be meeting him at one, tomorrow
supposed to be the same size as a small cat
supposed to be at school
supposed to be a good person 
supposed to be sober in the mornings
supposed to be out
supposed to be in Paris
supposed to be the right way up
supposed to be arriving on saturday
supposed to be able to do more than that
supposed to be good all the time
supposed to be in the best school
supposed to be inviting to the touch
supposed to be invisible to the naked eye
supposed to be out there somewhere
supposed to be inbetween her legs
supposed to be lined up
supposed to be soft
supposed to be coming tomorrow evening at seven
supposed to be off the menu
supposed to be lined up properly
supposed to be in bed by midnight
supposed to be in love with your wife
supposed to be feeling better by now


like

like a mirror

like a new pin

like a lullaby

like an aphid

like coal

like acetone

like concrete

like pure driven snow

like paper

like Africa

like gold dust

like a dream

like a river

like a lion

like a leaf

like an island

like a deep, deep sadness

like a photograph

like an angel

like seeds

like Campari and soda

like the wind

like flowers

like bedlam

like you and me

like putty in her hands

like ice

like propane

like India

like talc

like Natalie

like fire

like a rash

like stone

like poison

like falling off a log

like the way it looked before

like a brother

like thunder

like living forever

like me

like an arrow

like it was never there

like a dog but bigger

like all the others

like a rocket

like a book

like everyone else out there

like Portuguese rice pudding

like iron

like a bull in a china shop

like poetry

like soot

like water off a duck’s back

like wood

like long words

like watching paint dry

like it or not, it won’t go away

like the ocean

like a warm spring morning in rural Spain

like morphine

like the way you say “make yourself sick”

like the width of this room

like another world

like a dull TV program

like a very pale pink

like it will never stop

like toothache

like a fairy elephant

like your sister was

like we were last spring

like a sparrow that can pronounce the word love

like pins and needles

like an old lady’s handbag

like treacle

like stars

like a bright shining lie

like one hundred years of solitude

like the bible

like a child

like lemonade

like a sinking feeling in your stomach

like a bee sting

like chocolate

like a photo of someone you’ve never met

like trying to remember things before you were born

like trying to remember something you never knew

like the things computers do

like a dog on heat

like malaria

like sawdust

like a black and white movie

like when you were little

like a pale yellow flower

like falling off a ship into a dark, dark ocean

like losing your best friend

like I was before

like Martyn does

like the sun on my back

like it or not you’re still here

like TV

like watching paint dry

like the sound of your own voice

like loving someone who doesn’t exist

like it was never there

lost things

army razor in box, 2nd world war

platform ticket for Llanfairpwllgwyngyllgogerychwyrndrobwllllantysiliogogogoch railway station

doodle bug cigarette lighter (broken)

a gold ring with a red stone

a way forward

nokia smart phone from a taxi in Meknes

a camera on a beach in Netanya

small change pick-pocketed in the market in Antananarivo

a camera in Barcelona

number 8 in Bahasa and Hebrew

my parents

a denim jacket stolen from a hire car at Maro beach, Andalucia

a song from the sixties where the girls sings, " My sleeves are all torn, my buttons are loose, my make-up's starting to fade away."

virginity

innocence

youth

hope

I can remember not

I can remember not being in Zimbabwe

I can remember not having a fridge

I can remember not seeing a zebra last Thursday

I can remember not being awake

I can remember not thinking about you

I can remember not being Natalie

I can remember not always being awake when driving

I can remember not choosing my first lover

I can remember not going to Egypt

I can remember not having enough money to buy a car

I can remember not being afraid

I can remember not going home

I can remember not choosing the green one

I can remember not drowning

I can remember not breaking my leg

I can remember not seeing you with nothing on

I can remember not one but two

I can remember not being on time

I can remember not remembering your birthday

I can remember not wanting to make love with you

I can remember not being aware of who I was

I can remember not paying the bill

I can remember not going home

I can remember not choosing to be alone

I can remember not seeing you in Sainsbury’s, she said

I can remember not falling in love with Lynn

I can remember not feeling safe

I can remember not being aware of death

I can remember not showing up for work

I can remember not wanting to go to Jerusalem

I can remember not dealing with things properly

I can remember not making a decision one way or the other

I can remember not seeing things the way I do now

I can remember not being aware of a change

I can remember not talking to the police

I can remember not liking the way you said I should say it

I can remember not smoking, but differently to how I remember not smoking before I started smoking

I can remember not feeling good about alot of the things I did

I can remember not wanting it to stop

I can remember not being able to walk, once or twice

I can remember not asking you the things I really wanted to know

I can remember not wanting to be in India

I can remember not loving Natalie

I can remember not feeling confident

I can remember not reading Lorca and Conrad

I can remember not finishing my meals

I can remember not eating enough

I can remember not drinking too much

I can remember not knowing how to smoke

I can remember not knowing the taste of jackfruit

I can remember not knowing where I was going

I can remember not knowing what to do in the company of adults

I can remember not thinking I was good enough

I can remember not being there for you

I can remember not feeling good about certain colour choices

I can remember not wanting to be with you forever

new substances

tantalum
molasses
plastic
sebum
putty
camphor
wormwood
phenol
serotonin
snow
heroin
cannabis
alizarin
acetylene
acetal
strophanthin
tar
taramasalata
houmous
vinegar
henna
jelly
blancmange
thionine
grease
thyrotropin
thyroxine
tobacco
tombac
tofu
toffee
snot
phlegm
fluoxotine
ecstacy
citronella
treacle
paraffin
shampoo
antifreeze
bile
arsenic
rennet
pop
smegma
fudge
fertiliser
humectant 
agar
glycerine
hair
wolfsbane
sweat
cardboard
rhodopsin
magma
hydroquinone
cryogen
fluff

fish named after other things

squirrelfish
butterflyfish
lionfish
catfish
parrotfish
dogfish
cowfish
goatfish
shrimpfish
elephant fish
wolffish
viper fish
lizardfish
porcupinefish
rabbitfish
rat fish
scorpionfish
toadfish
angelfish
pipefish
damselfish
clownfish
filefish
pearlfish
soldierfish
trumpetfish
kingfish
red velvet fish
weed fish
hand fish
goldfish
drumfish
monkfish
surgeonfish
anglerfish
hatchet fish
lancet fish
red band fish
weever fish
snow fish
boxfish
oarfish
hag fish
ice fish
lantern fish
milk fish
moonfish
needlefish
flashlightfish
tripod fish
devilfish
pilot fish
globefish
rat-tail fish
ribbonfish
hawkfish
dwarf hawkfish
monocle hawkfish
jawfish
spadefish
silver batfish
rudderfish
moonbeam dwarf-angelfish
lemonpeel dwarf-angelfish
tiger angelfish
emporer angelfish
trapeze angelfish
Koran angelfish
ring angelfish
bannerfish
phantom bannerfish
cube boxfish
pyramid boxfish
beard rabbitfish
coral rabbitfish
skunk anemonefish
napoleonflsh
amber parrotfish
velvet surgeonfish
epaulette surgeonfish
convict surgeonfish
palette surgeonfish
unicornfish
bignose unicornfish
humpback unicornfish
porcupinefish
pufferfish
clown triggerfish
halfmoon triggerfish
scythe triggerfish
giant triggerfish
wire-net filefish
ear-spot filefish
longnose filefish
arrowhead soapfish
goldribbon soapfish
snowflake soapfish
cardinalfish
guitarfish
soapfish
oilfish
redchin flyingfish
flyingfish
sand lizardfish
bronze soldierfish
cube boxfish
eclipse butterflyfish
ember parrotfish
raccoon butterflyfish
redcoat squirrelfish
redfish
sailfish
sawfish
flatfish
sunfish
swordfish
triggerfish
spook fish
trunkfish
numbfish
wreck fish
scaldfish
trumpetfish
stonefish
cardinal fish
batfish
anemonefish
frogfish
glassfish
hawkfish
paperfish
diamond fish
crocodile needlefish
sabre squirrelfish
razorfish
halfmoon butterflyfish
rightangle butterflyfish
vagabond butterflyfish
skunk clownfish
turncoat hogfish
convict surgeonfish
Picasso triggerfish
chevron triggerfish
honeycomb filefish
harlequin filefish
bonefish
jewfish
sailfish
longbill spearfish
ladyfish
jobfish
raccoon butterflyfish
teardrop butterflyfish
pig-face butterflyfish
rip butterflyfish
shadow butterflyfish
tilefish
bloodspot squirrelfish
redcoat squirrelfish
glowfish
semicircle angelfish
melon butterflyfish
goldsaddle goatfish
mosquito fish
fire-fish
crown squirrelfish
giant squirrelfish
giant angelfish
clown angelfish
silver pearlfish
seagrass ghost pipefish
cleaner pipefish
cornetfish
zebra dwarf lionfish
devil scorpionfish
waspfish
leaf fish
tomato anemonefish
hovercraft boxfish
thornback boxfish
leopard catfish
tomato clownfish
mandarin fish
dragon-fish
domino damselfish
jewelfish
seahorse
tigertail seahorse
seamoth
silver sweetlips
moorish idol
oriental sweetlips
harlequin sweetlips
slate sweetlips
longnosed emporer
smalltooth emporer
bigeye emporer
neon fusilier
zebra humbug
coral beauty
copper sweeper
cave sweeper
rainbow runner
humbug damsel
sergeant major
goldring bristletooth
Englishman
bigeye
firemouth